A Girl On A Journey

So, I’m starting a blog.  Here it is.  I guess the first thing I need to do it introduce myself to all of you ‘out there’.  So here it goes:

I’m a girl on a journey.  I am constantly growing and changing, fully living and fully dying.  I feel things at the core of my being and I am constantly thinking.  My mind never shuts off, which I know is a problem.  Sometimes I think I know myself very well and then sometimes I surprise myself.  The person inside of me and the life I live are, sometimes, more different then I would like them to be, but that is my journey

I am passionately in love with a God who is involved intimately in my life.  I am a wife to a husband who embraces life with me.  He sees the good in me, even when it’s hard to see.  I am a mother.  Sometimes I am a mother to one child, sometimes to more, depending on who is living at our home at any given time.  I gave birth to a little boy who has touched my life in such a profound way and teaches me things everyday.  However, there are many other kids and teens that have come into my life and have left imprints on my heart and soul.

This blog is dedicated to discussing my journey with God, my journey with Christianity and my journey with the Church.  Since this is my introduction, I will be upfront about my beliefs at this point in my life.

I believe in God.  I believe in Jesus.  I believe that God is involved in our everyday lives.  Most days I believe that God is good, although this is the biggest hindrance in my walk with God. 

At certain moments I claim to be a Christian and at certain moment I do not claim to be a Christian.  I am not ashamed of God; I do however have moments where I am ashamed of Christianity.  Depending on what the word “Christian” means to the people I am with, determines whether I consider myself to be one.  I’m sorry if that makes me seem wishy washy.  Christianity often seems wishy washy to me.

My relationship with Church has been an interesting one.  I’ve had my ups and downs along with many other people.  Currently, I am a pastor at Community Life Church.  It feels a little funny to write that last sentence since I just stated that there are moments that I do not claim to be a Christian.  At this point I can honestly say that I love my church.  I am privileged to journey with this group of people who not only accept me, but love me.  I am humbled to be one of the leaders of this group of people who are passionately exploring what it means to be the Church that Jesus Christ intended us to be.  I am blessed to be a part of Community Life Church, and as I type this there are tears running down my cheeks because I am realizing, maybe for the first time, that healing has taken place in me.  I have not always loved church. 

This is my journey.  If my journey can inspire, encourage, stretch, or make you realize that you want nothing to do with me, then well… I have touched your life and hopefully that means you become more aware of your own journey.  Whether our lives touch in this physical life, or only through this web site…. Welcome.  May you be blessed.